In a random conversation, a random name came up
Spoken from another, with no warning brought
A skip of the heart, old feeling stired up
A memory of old, a sweet pleasant thought


There was this girl I went to school with. She was smart, beautiful, and driven. I was smitten for nearly 5 years. Time and space was the only thing that could free my mind from thoughts of her. This was love unfulfilled. One day she asked me to my face if I liked her - I lied. This was one woman I was not destined for and I was not going to expose my heart. That was one the the few decisions in life that I truly regret. I dated a long-time friend for a couple of months one summer, and that didn't work out. I swore an oath that I would not get involved with someone unless I felt the same depth of emotion I felt for her. That feeling where your heart skips a beat everytime her name was spoken, or she walked in the room. Her name came up in a conversation, and even after all these years her name still causes my heart to skip. Now I am older, and my heart is beaten and scarred. I don't know if I will ever love another in the same way, but hope remains. If nothing else, I am reminded of the oath I made and am encouraged to keep it. Life is long, but this is one oath I just may keep.